Sunday, August 06, 2006
I don't know what im dealing on.For this past week,I felt like a real bitch.A real one,not as in just labelling yourself,cause that's different.It felt like the universe is crumbling below my heel,and cracks just do not seem to understand the meaning of leeway.And the next minute,I noticed my supercilious expression looking down my nose on the whole action.Maybe I'm fine,maybe I'm not.I dont know.I began to have more doubts and ifs than usual.Maybe I'm already convinced that I will never find true love and the glittering life i hoped was just pure fantasy.The reality-'selling' myself to survive-is a dehumanising grind which is just pushing me away from real love but towards a fascination with pure unintentional pleasure.Uhm.
For the mean time I'm perpetually waiting for my emotional barriers to be tested by a handsome man and choosing between thye dark path I'm on and risking everything to find my 'inner light'
Tell me readers if the things i said below are true,and if it had ever happened to you before
When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side.I saw this happen yesterdaay as the sun went down.And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! No herons and no distant music.So how is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly.
Life moves very fast.It rushes us from heaven to hell ina matter of seconds.
marfi @ 12:17 AM