let me kiss you out of the bearded barley

2007-02-18T23:14:00.000-08:00

Since I was down to say anything about anything.I shall say anything about the WEATHER!!

Beautiful weather here I come.

Rain rain..I want a saint

Sun sun..I want a son

Moon moon..I want a balloon

Snow snow..I want a show

Star star..I want a cookie jar

Wind wind..I want to win

Cloud cloud..I want to shout

Cold cold..I want to be bold

Hot hot..I want a shot!

Drizzle drizzle..I want to sizzle

Dark dark..HAKIM BARKS!!

teeheehee =) taik,lets go get ice cream after this k

Courtesy by: Hakim sotong and Ayu cute =)

2007-02-01T23:18:00.000-08:00

Please forgive me for the incessant delay of posting people.I was really busy with my job to such an extent I didn't had time to share the little details of my issues.So on this blissful afternoon,I had set some time for a little talk out of the few things I have literally learnt when working,only during this off day.

Working with the few people from Giordano has definitely helped me to identify and assemble elements of effective communication.In that sense,communication with a problem person is similar to making a phone call.I'll have to dial all the numbers in the correct oreder if I want to get through. Leave just one digit and I will not get through.Yet,it is still possible to learn the number and dial correctly, and completelt transform interactions with people I can't stand.

People like The Tank:

Pushy and ruthless, loud and forceful or with the quiet intensity and surgical percision of a laser,the Tank assumes thet the end justifies the means.Expect no mercy.He is the Mr Area Manager.Suckhead.

The Sniper:

This covert operator identifies your weaknesses and uses them against you, through sabotage behind your back or well-aimed putdowns in front of the crowd.She is shop manager for one of the junior outlets.

The Know-It-All:

This person knows 98 percent of anything.Just ask! Know-It -Alls will tell you what they know-for hours at a time-but won't take a second to listen to your inferior ideas.He is Mr JC boy.yeah yeah,whatever.

The Yes Person:

Quick to agree,slow to deliver,the Yes Person leaves a trail of unkept commitments and broken promises.Though they say no one, Yes people overcommit to please.

TheNo Person:

They say that," What goes up must come down." And what conmes down must never be allowed to get back up again.Doleful and discouraging,they drive others to despair.

And The Whiner:

There's a plan for their lives, but they're not in it. Instead, they wallow in their woe, whine incessantly, and carry the weight of the world on their shoulders.He is the one and only Mr coakroach guy.I called him that cause he does look like one.No joke.heehee

Enough about work,there are the last few things which kept me insist to tell.Here's a heartfelt notice on how much I miss them.They are my friends:

Kim boy,I didnt have any picture of you alone so my last resort was to capture your pic and gg from her blog.Sorry kim boy boy.Same goes to Badd's pic,captured from Syuh's blog.

I MISS YOU PEOPLE GIANT BODY LOADS!!

2007-01-01T10:40:00.000-08:00

2007-01-01T03:29:00.000-08:00

2006? What a year.However we still have to wave our hands meticulously goodbye and a welcome hand-hat party to 2007.

So anyway,hari raya haji had to come to a clash with new years eve.Much to a nightmare was that,I was barricading my thoughts on meeting gg and wan,eventually we met at 11.And when we boarded the train,suprisingly we had to breathe in the smell of beer which smell worst than cow dunk.ugh.

I clutched gg's fingers with ecstasy,fearing we might just get pushed around and got lost and my fading voice won't make a sign.After which we met with the other few girls and boys and made a wholesome shrill of glee,bawling happy new year and all.In the torrid heat of the night,noone felt the need to walk far or indulge in strenuous running.We patted delicately at the sweat on our brows and neck,and soon made a butt down to a little corner down old parliamant lane.

The boys were so set to head to chijmes that I felt like a salt easily dissolved into their influence.We soldiered our way there even though the old and ragged moon was telling me to set home,but it threw a hard light and shadow.And when we got there,my legs were already indicating tension,prudently didi and I scrabbled to the middle of the dance floor and start whirling our feets and hands to the dance beat.The music was getting more catchier untill our dance turn to a quadruple step.haha.Believe it or not,I was not sure whether he was a phillipine,but according to didi he was.Nevermind about that,he whimsically nailed into our group and started dancing whom I thought he only resembled the popular notion of a disgusting big over boiled potato.ugh.Much to the annihilation,I thought he was trying to get close with me and suddenly my glee turned to terror.For a while,I stood there in the same spot transfixed.

So that was what mostly happened for our new year party.I have pictures,but the computer simply refused to read my memory card.Sobs.

2006-12-27T23:45:00.000-08:00

What is a classic really? Apa itu sebenarnya klasik? It's not a fad,so your current craze for vintage dresses doesn't count.But your old Bacckstreet Boys or Westlife or Mariah Carey's Vision Of Love does cause it's and eternal guilty pleasure.Something refined and elegant like your clutch bag can be called classic.It's also something nearly unparalleled and always popular like dirty matini. And even if it was a display of bed acting,the classic teen TV series is and always will be Beverly Hills 90210 because it set the formulas we see today on The O.C. and the like.

Classics never really go away. They may be forgotten for a while but they always come back,perhaps in a different form but with the essence retained.Think Clinique's classic three-step beauty regime.(i'm using it,been using it for a very long time u know) Though we now have extras like serums and scrubs,the core remains cleansing,toning and moisturising.

We hang on to the classics because they never fail us.Take it from history,a classic will last for life

2006-12-12T07:29:00.000-08:00

Perhaps it's because I'm a Gemini,but I've always felt like my emotions swing exrtremes.Take for example, my self-belief.Some days I feel so confident Mount Everest looks like a mere hump in the road.Other days,every molehill is a mountain. Back when I was still studying,I generally felt pretty unsecure about myself,even when harbouring infatuation toward males whose hormones were bouncing off the walls.I soldiered on through my Primary and Secondary years,having serial crushes.In some cases,I had no qualms about making the first move. But after a few failed pathetic-lame-oh-so-romantic sorties,I found my self-doubt resurfacing with a vengeance.Depending on the time of the day, and whether I was PMS-ing, my thoughts ranged from, "Of course there is someone out there for me!" to "It's not me,it's them" to "So I'll just be one of those cool single women.Cats make a pretty good pet anyway."

Okay enough about the self-story telling.Lets move on with some old ripe example.

Example of the "he" and "she"
(imagine it's a continue from the above)

Then she started seeing someone.Three years after she was nursed,and had worked hard to snuff out,this Great Crush of her life,he entered her life again and told her he liked her and they would formed that often-smuf entity known as a couple.

She,however hated to admit this,but being with him has boosted her self-confidence a lot more than all the rah-rah-ing she've done before the mirror and the "You go, girl!" books she've memorised.

Then I came in(means back to my-say,short while only)

Accepting my body,similiarity to teapot and all,is one thing.Having someone tell me said body is not just fine,but fine, is another thing altogether.You know those polls in magazines claiming that woman tend to find themsleves fatter than guys think they are? I'm not sure how true this is,considering the number of times I've heard hideous-looking males criticising the appearance of random women, but in this case, I am more than happy to be statistic.

Shopping trips often leave me feeling homocidal because finding trousers that fit is almost impossible(thanks to Asian sizing and mom's hips,back when she was young), and my boobs were not made fro the so-called free size tank tops stocked in most of the local shops.But it's hard to feel bad about my body only if someone comes and tell me with the appropriate lasciviousness, that I look ravishing.

Then the "he" and "she" story chime in.Her say.

On the other hand,he sometimes unwittingly sends into big-time body purgatory .She recently got a new skirt for the first time since,oh,the Berlin Wall. When she suprised him with this quasifeminine getup,he was accordingly appriciative and complimentary . But what she didn't count on was what he said,in a tone of awe,when she slipped into her new towering espadrille wedges: "Wow, your calf muscles are really big.You look like ...a cyborg!" He topped it off with the dom dom dom sounds an appoaching giant might make.

(Back to my say)

Now guys listen up.You can be huge Gundam fans and total slaves to science fiction, but you do not compare a woman to a half-human,half-robot creature with limbs that flatten buildings and crush entire cities.Trust me, the way to reassure us after we get all paranoid about our lower limbs or fatty jelly belly is not by saying,"So? Good what.You have runner's legs" or "So? Good what.Its a safe protection for our future growing baby who's inside the tummy" The correct thing to do is to positively compare us to Gisele even our total height is probably equivelent only to the length of her thigh bone.

2006-12-03T01:32:00.000-08:00

*laughs*okay okay..

Dear Readers,

Have you ever have a friend who almost make you laugh everyday,and when laughter happens it has to be those torso-pinching laughters.If you must have,paste their pictures on your blog and label them 'Your Funniest Friend-cum-Clown'.You might want to use some of the ways which I had done below.*laughs again*

My friend who was born with a a humourous talent:
JEFFEREY LIM

PICTURE NUMBER 1

HUMOUROUS LOOK 1: THE FOLDED NECK *laughs*

PICTURE NUMBER 2

HUMOUROUS LOOK 2: THE FUTURE GENERATION OF AN
EVIL SWEEPER,okay whatever i think its funny thats all.hurhur

And lastly,this is my most favourite picture of all
Jefferey's humour picture collection.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*pig,just by looking at your face can make me laugh my blood out*

So if your friend has what it takes to be the
next 'Friend with the most humourous look',
paste it in your blog.*hehe*

okay i bet jeff's angry with me once he chanced upon this,alah taik i treat you gelare ice cream ok and one kish.ehehhe

2006-12-01T00:07:00.000-08:00

Have all of us,subconsciously or not,lose faith in sustaining relationships?

During our parents' black-and-white days,women were expected to marry the first guy they met and pledge to stay together forever.But our generation is a cynical bunch.Increasingly, when we hear about newly-formed couples,we would all go,"I give them three months,six tops." Why the scepticism?(i'm scepticism at times too) Are we too consumed by HEADS- the Happily-Ever-After Deficiency Syndrome, that we've grown bored of love and butterflies-in-the-stomach feeling it brings?

Of course, there are exceptions.There are still hopeless romantics who shed tears of joy when they find out their butchers' daughter finally got hitched to the man of her dreams.They're also the ones who genuinely believe their own Prince Charming is still out there even after failed relationships(im included here). And when Prince Charming does finally arrive, he will stay by their sides and protect them from evil relatives and fire-breathing bosses.

Most of us call them too idealistic,immature even.But the presence of these hopeless romantics injects a dash of hope into today's otherwise sad love stories.Accounts of unhappy couples and broken marriages are surfacing quicker than Brangelina(Bratt pitt and Angelina) can walk down the aisle, if ever. I have friends who have been single up till now,not because they haven't found the right one but because they're afraid of getting hurt.(im very scared of this f.y.i)

I dare say most of us crave intimacy and stable relationships, but there's just this niggling fear in us that makes us hold back from truly believing that what we want is possible. Perhaps we've been betrayed by someone we trusted or perhaps we've seen couples close to us-even our parents- go their seperate ways after solid years of romance. I,in fact contracted HEADS after witnessing seemingly happy couples head to Splitsville without any danger signs.But that does not mean I have stopped believing in the fairytale romance altogether.

2006-11-29T00:38:00.000-08:00

If only I could sit down and re-write or redact whatever one does to a 17-year accumulation of episodes.I would want to skirt off every demonize act one has done to it.Skipping every mutual relationship it has reacted to it.More to say it might just slip of our fingers and roll down to the drain while leaving scarred tissues on our hearts.

We do not have to discover connection techniques and processes from the beginning;they learn from the previous generation,who learn from their previous predecessors, and so on.And so if we apply this special technique into our daily lives,I reckon everyone will remain safe,safe from danger.

We may accidently slip our tounge to certain people especially when we're totally indulge in our hearty chats.And worry not,we do it all the time.In times we try to understand each other so much so they fell to the curled rings of our tangled trap.Paradoxically producing a sense of liberation in me,because many people have tried to make the decision for me,and how did I answered to it? I blow my mind out.

Something has happened to my lovable friend Her sickly body is making nothing except punching my heart painfully.Invisible tears crossed my cheek and hers.I inversed back to nostalgic,trying to make everything work out well for her.I cannot answer to her problem neither make her pain go away.But I can try though,or even stab the culprit until he or she is totally disfigured.*Sighs*

And again I was confronted with pictures of smiling dolphins with sounds of angry chants telling me to adjust myself to the world that the fact that not every problem is solvable and that the global tide is inexorable.

I pray and hope that us humans can solve our problem like walking on copses and then go on with our lives leaving the past as history

And so be it.

2006-11-26T08:14:00.000-08:00

"A little less fun More of a boredom" was how yesterday's trip went.Tell me was it worth it sailing almost one hour of journey to vivocity and claim to fun for only two insufficient hours.Give me a face,I need to slap.My heart sank and my mind tells me not to go on further details.*pressing lips*

*Clasp hands,thought hard*And something cuts off the disraction.Blood pools stayed mobile on the grounds of esplanade.Ahuh.Gruesome I know.I did'nt know about this only when i came down form the rooftop with jeff and he start talking to my ear that there was a fight earlier on between two secret societies.According to witness didi claimed that the victim was stabbed at the head(geez) and noticedhim ran and yet stabbed twice.Bluergh.At that brief moment I was honestly standing bug-eyed and my heart just instantly stood still.

Since the computer is transferred to a much better environment and with my long holidays intact this means I'm going to make full use of it until whatever time,be it morning.HAHA!

2006-11-21T01:04:00.000-08:00

While it is true that my O levels are officially over,I certainly can't keep the expressions happy u know.3 months slaps up very quickly and i don't know what may come.Because i have to be really prepared on heading towards different directions be it staggering or running.Poly has been really putting my confidence to the level of shame cause i might just get bad grades you see.O levels? It's certainly not easy for the slow and the fast.

Reminiscing,i clutched on to the near reaches in my memory and remembered crying.I was doing maths i think.Yeah it was.The second time was Humans.I needed this presurising moment to over quickly,as fast as possible.Cause i nearly could not take it anymore.Of course, i shan't never give up,geez thats a waste if i gave up.Luckily i have couple of friends who saved me from the beatest juncture.

And when its over yesterday,i reckon even the plants could die hearing me screamed.It rubbed the pain and brushed off every single paper tragedie.Noone can stop me from littering the blocks with my hugest laughters.Phenomenon.HAHA.

Whatever the results is,life still goes on and it has to be constantly moving.I've made my backup plans.Mum knows about it but not dad.I dont want to jolt his frustrations yet.I swear to you he really want to see me in poly next year.But his demands are a little slim because the papers were hard.Man cambridge was a bitch.

I will be meeting the girls later when the sun sets.Yes i am looking forward mate.

2006-09-13T08:54:00.000-07:00

Last week when sex was boring,i deliberately scrolled down the net and found a few hilarious cum horny pictures hatched against me and I am plastering right here.

i have no idea,probably during that juncture their orgasm inclined and they had to take to down to issue of 'FREE SEXY LEGS! YEAY'

Geez...what a tan! hahahahah!!! waterskiing boy's tan is a funny one.Made him looked transexual.LOL!

OUH MY! is this what office workers really do during OT? Hmmm

ok so i do agree Ronald Mcdonald is a little bit lonelier than anyone else.On the behalf of Ronald,i really do appreciate you impersonating and sits with him,but how is it possible for you to have sex with him.Even if you could,its not going to be pleasurable cause his, is made of hard plastic-SUPER STEAMY!

Goodnight.Hehee (> ,)

2006-09-08T00:27:00.000-07:00

HADY MIRZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KAU KU CINTA!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU MAN!!!!!!

JANGAN HAMPE KAN I!!!!!!

DON'T DISSAPOINT ME!!!!

HADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-30T04:19:00.000-07:00

make me happy
make me sad
when ran together they turned bad.

The picture above says 'Lovin LIFE'.
Am I loving it right? :(

2006-08-20T01:30:00.000-07:00

I know its late.1.01 am now and only now then I start blogging.I had'nt post anything yet since ages ago and people have long start wondering why the fuck is ayu so fucking lazy. Well lat me tell you something readers,im no equivalent to regular bloggers whom bloggged everyday with sexy or cuty pretence pictures lacing their blog.And i dont nor cant blog every trace about my life(okay maybe a littl,perhaps 10 % only) in this particular avenue whom some people call it the free exposure web page.Sorry people i just cant,and if i've offended you,I'm sorry.Most people hate me for my hot thorns on jelly words.Hey,thats my nature and there;s nothing you can change that.

Me and mother aren't talking terms.It has been longer than i expected.Although she would still prepare me my ususal hot milo and kaya bread in the morning,I need to throw the stinkist rubbish,so it's like a trade.Mother was being unresonable and ridiculous about my results.So i received a C6 for mother tounge malay and it was suppose to be something expected.Then I called her and told her about the results.And this was her words,"c6? why so bad? ur cousin got a A2.What about your friends?" HELLO! I'm whimpering here,there you are comparing.A little advise or support will be a great help okay! Obviously,the blabbering of compare and condemning comtinued even though when i took a quick nap in the afternoon.Thanks to her sick speech,i got distracted and couldnt continue on my nap."Thanks for nothing ma"

I missed my usual sunday las vegas,miami ink and boston legal.And I had to miss it today.

I hopped onto dawn and xiaxue's blog.And they both looked pathetically artificial.Never have i thougtht they were pretty,and if anyone of you out there is trying their very best to smile cutily and smear a 12 level cake of extra-fair-than-your-own-skin foundation.I might wanna label you a caucasion wanna be gone wrong.Here's a tip: Apply bird's shit as your foundation,they make wonders. : )

2006-08-06T00:17:00.000-07:00

I don't know what im dealing on.For this past week,I felt like a real bitch.A real one,not as in just labelling yourself,cause that's different.It felt like the universe is crumbling below my heel,and cracks just do not seem to understand the meaning of leeway.And the next minute,I noticed my supercilious expression looking down my nose on the whole action.Maybe I'm fine,maybe I'm not.I dont know.I began to have more doubts and ifs than usual.Maybe I'm already convinced that I will never find true love and the glittering life i hoped was just pure fantasy.The reality-'selling' myself to survive-is a dehumanising grind which is just pushing me away from real love but towards a fascination with pure unintentional pleasure.Uhm.

For the mean time I'm perpetually waiting for my emotional barriers to be tested by a handsome man and choosing between thye dark path I'm on and risking everything to find my 'inner light'

Tell me readers if the things i said below are true,and if it had ever happened to you before

When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side.I saw this happen yesterdaay as the sun went down.And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! No herons and no distant music.So how is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly.
Life moves very fast.It rushes us from heaven to hell ina matter of seconds.

2006-07-25T00:54:00.000-07:00

I could not think straight,my train of thoughts was often interrupted my the invisible upwelling of tears. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out and let the world carry on without me.But there wasn't any will nor key to get me there.

Racing past my head was the last images of our fondest memories.I remembered feeling hesitant about the whole idea of telling him,cause I know the consequences of it was as painful as losing a limb.I never understood why I had to be such an unfortunate party to suffer this ill-fate.

The only reason why I had to choose this option was due to the low inner strength imposed on me. It was really something I did not have and I saw risk-taking was the only way to not aggravate the matter. The birth of the news was not even intended but still, I did not hate myself for feeling bad nor guilty and therefore continued with my principle. Anyway, the proclaimed serene;did not even give a hoot about it and I see no reason why I should worry away.

But looking back on the pain I had to endure, it was hard to not feel dejected. Afterall, it was not some ordinary pain, it was going to be months of sheer torture. But to not add insult to the injury, there was still people who helped me alleviate the burden off my shoulders. And I wanna thank you people and god for not letting go any belittlement nor humiliation on me. These million parings of heart flesh will soon or later be passed on to someone else. Realising itself a ninny,will happen.

Whenever I decided my mind about something, it was almost impossible to ditch the decision after much thought. I had not had a proper sleep nor appetite(please,don't think I'm indirectly trying to gain sympathy,soo not that type of person.Can't bear bottling anyway) since the day I first ,found my choler rising about it.

Now that I had thought it through, my heart an mind had set on it. And so, I need to went ahead with the decision half-heartedly, I vowed never to look back and move on, or at least pretend to.

2006-07-19T05:50:00.000-07:00

RACIAL HARMONY DAY

Yes yes yes! 5a2's Racial harmony day was a superb blast! My wonderful clear camera pictures will tell you more about what had been happening just now.haha,okay okay so here's a quick recap.Got ready your tissues already?Cause you're going to cry of laughter.heheh

I got school a little earlier as mentioned by ain but i still thought i was coming as usual(i'll come only when the gates are half closed).So since there were some time left,we took a quick snap of ourselves actually just to see if we were looking really fine.

This was when we girls vein-ly check our dressing,make sure there were'nt any wrinkles and as we add on a little touch of eyeliner on our sleepy eyes.

haha,so cute of syuh grinning mischeviously.10 points for her coolness! :D

Jeff were shouting for zai from the third level,since i could hear him why not take a pic of him.RiGhT?hehe,i think jeff looks adorable,just like the bear in my room.:)

During physics,me and the girls thought Mrs Chew resembles a karung guni woman with a little amp pouch wrapped around her little waist.HAHAH! still cant slip it off my mind.Try visualising Mrs Chew in a loose whute songket baju kurung,her hair still long staright with bangs which are soo-china vintage and a mic amp hung loosley around her waist.HAHAHAHAH! i thought it was really funny.What a comedian.Technically,these were what we were doing during physics.Well,I did my experiment though.

Lu chong gua.hahah! Actually she wanted to say gua chong lu.LOLS.Soo typical of claud.

And here's the rest of the happy moments.

A quick snap with Mr trevor,our "dear" humans teacher.Although he may he such an ass at times by picking on me almost all the time,he looked rather cute on the picture above.10 points for Mr Trevor!! Hooray!

The western stall was usually packed with greedy and impatient customers,so since its going to take 10 minutes of our recess period,the girls and I started cam-whoring as we thoguht it would be a perfect time killer.

(bad looking all adult)

makcik kpo siti kite yang paling ter-lame sekali terselit kape dol? ahhaha!!!! suke sebok sebok siti?:p

Err,the 5 unprofessional silat-tians?I hope not.

A total chinese picture of best buddy hakim and sizzling me(eheh).Kim told me I was looking boiling hot just now,somehow i thought hakim looked equally hot too.I mean seriously:)

My best blessings for the both of them,hope they will be together tilll eternity.

For a while i felt like a grandma,her grandkids kissing her.aww they love me.I love you guys too.i love you all more then my bed.

Mat was asking jeff to opened the locked door,so for a while me and syuh thought it would be a great deal by posing and making fun of mat by covering his ass with my fan.

the gay couple dancing together.mat muke pencil sey.hahah!lol

hahahahhahahahahahha!hahahahahah! you alomost made me pee in my pants sia! you bloody pig u.Pose bapok sey.haha.The best pose for today man! 50 points for Pakcik Rahmat Rahim!

the totally crammed up face.Thats jeff singing us a malay song.This hope-will-get-us-motivated-by-the-richness-of-malay-language song.what budaya song lah.

5A2 CAMARADERIE!!!!!!!!!!!

Carol Lau.the best teacher ever!.love you;)

Fashionistas best friends forever.lalallalal!

Gay ass boys.aww

jeff hugged me till i couldnt breathe,he purposely covered my noes with his scarf so that he could raped me after i dropped unconcious.whahahah!

sorry ain,spare me a litttle tinny witty bit of limelight.

Guess who's voluptous ass is this?

STILL DUNNO? SLOW-WITTED YOU

OKAY OKAY HERE'S A CLUE

hahhah! OKAY i bet you know who it is now.Hope she dosent finds out about this.nyahahah.awesome pictures huh? firstly i would like to thank my fantastic camera and also ehem ehem my also another fantastic photographing skills.So did you visit the toilet or wet plys of tissue papers?

hehe

Toodles: D

2006-07-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

HOILDAYS BABY!!

I hope im not too late to publish my family's holiday pictures during the late june holidays.They;my family and cousins all went off to kelantan earlier and left me all alone in singapore(boohoo)cause i had to attend my coursework B training module course.But,i still get to catch up with all the fun at pulau redangg.Syuh's another bug in the ass,cause she's been pestering me for the pictures.woops.eheheh.So,enjoy the pictures folks

while the aunties(that's my mom at the picture above heheh) checked out the kains...my cousins took a quick snap of this old lazy dozing off.Good job guys.HAHAH.muke kuih bantal sey

And here comes the pictures of me and family while going off to Redang island and while we were there.

beautiful isnt it,the vibrance of the green effect.

here i am,still very sleepy and tired form the 9 hour bus ride.thanks to hakim for borrowing his magnificent PSP(ehem ehem).

scene of the fantastic sea upon reaching

okay you might wanna consider that this beach is a zillion tons better then sentosa.okay like duh.tsk(thank god i have great opportunities to go here)

and lastly a picture of some comercial shoot for india.Awesome =D

FRANCE THE SPECTACULAR

2006-07-10T05:51:00.000-07:00

FRANCE THE SPECTACULAR!

THE ONES WHO DESERVES TO WIN: FRANCE!!!

Due to such a strong heart and determination,yes!They do deserve to win.Although they were'nt the winners of today morning's world cup match,they were indeed HEROES!

MAN OF THE MATCH:THE PLAYMAKER

ZINEDINE ZIDANE

AND A FANTASTIC HERO:
THIERY HENRY

NOW

THE ONES WHO FUCKING DONT DESERVE TO WIN

FUCKING ITALY! DUH!

No doubt they dont deserve to win, why? cause all they were looking for on today's morning match was;PENALTY! Super clearcut dude! All they were fucking doing was defend. Defending like a huge school of dumb fishes. Imagine,if the defence were'nt that much,would they stand a chance to win? Obviously not,duh! They were'nt attacking,NOT AT ALL! Doesn't that shows taht italy were just a bunch of LOUSY-LOSER-COWARDS! I bet their plan for this match was to pretend real hurt on every fucking minute so as to gain as much penalties as they could.My god.

For your information, they didnt win the game due to their fantastic kicks,but due to desperation. Fuck u all italians.

Hungry and Cold

2006-07-07T06:19:00.000-07:00

The whole thing comes with so many known consequences which in a case, I perpetually felt into.It's nothing incompared on how you feel about the inside,but what matters most was the exterior.Every angle does make a huge diference.It's like "Roll of thunder hear my cry"ever heard?My whole perspection on the interior of life is lacking its paucity of distressing.Even the mouse can't handle its tail.Ugh

Corpsing like a mad ancient mildstone,the girl finally found a way to emotionally wrench ebrything out.Drops of cells finally slipped through her tightly clenched fingers,and when that happens she allow herself to drop langour-ly onto the plushy cushions.Knowing how upset she was,she wished she was transmorgrified into into a pillar of salt as she flees the inferno.Bearing that she can't express her face -- pinched, vengeful, and mean -- which she meant to assign to a choleric temperament or a display of tactical emotion on the part of a clever bully,she went around dragging her feet then crouched for mercy.

So there in the cold night,she whimpered alone.

MSN is a big bore.Like seriously,i blocked 5 contacts cause i think they're another huge boring,irritating and ridiculous people.

P.S: Soooo looking forward for the french to conquer the world cup, Italy's a battling team so it means a good fight is just about to get started.

8.58 P.M

2006-06-29T06:01:00.000-07:00

''For in its innermost depths youth is lonelier than old age." I read this in some book and I've always remembered it, and found it to be true. Is it true that grownups have more difficult time here than we do? No. I know it isn't. Older people have formed their opinions and don't waver before they act. It's twice as hard for us young ones to hold our ground, and maintain our opinions, in a time when people are showing their worst sides, and do not know whether to believe in truth and right and God.

Anyone who claims that the older ones have a more difficult time here certainly does not realize to what extent our problems weigh down on us, problems for which we think we've found a solution, but the solution seem able to resist the facts which reduce it to nothing again. That is difficulty in these times; ideals, dreams and cherished hope rise within us only to meet the horrible truth and shattered.

I have strong senses which ables me to know the truth untold. I found my choler rising.

Emotic hunk

2006-06-26T18:33:00.000-07:00

Arggh! How faster can he melt me,he's fuggin hot baby!Emo boy. I know there's no way I could get through him cause his on the other side of the earth, but who says sheer admiration is something I shouldn't desire.

Buttnut

2006-06-07T09:09:00.000-07:00

I was browsing my brother's documents when I chanced on this file,feeling my fingers itchy,i got hold on this picture.Look

Hehe,how bitchier can i get.Their faces werent shown,and if,i wont show exactly.heh.I was killing boredom when i stumbled on this picture.yikes,i thought.I thought it was really disgusting.I mean its like,to have your butt rubbed against someone's dick.Bluegh!
Ouh and dont you dare think thats my brother on the picture,cause that's not not him.He's just the photographer.The guy's face was'nt shot maybe because his face was showing that he was all steamy and all.Those are his LaSelle Friends.Ugh.Anyways,this picture recently taken at MOS.And no,he didnt went to the underage party.He's legal anyway.Duh.

Even if i hit the club,i would'nt want to grind on some fat asshole's dick.

2006-06-03T23:57:00.000-07:00

It effects alot when people call you names espicially when they think it wont hurt you much.I should not have been to grams place yesterday it was horrible.The people have had mouths opened so...err..nevermind.Let me just briefly tell you readers what happened.

At grandma's place,where all the cousins were there.We were having a illegal gathering.When......

THE CHARACTERS:

Man A
Man B
Woman A
Woman B
Woman C
Woman D
Girl A
Boy A
Boy B(the sickly irrirating monster)
Act 1
In the kitchen fetching some drinks;coke.

Man B:Eh you so fat already! what's your waist size?30?(giggles)
Me:No
Man B:29?
Me:No.Rolls eyes bitchily.
Man B:THEN WHAT 28??
Me:No!
Man B:27??
I had to walk off,because I dont think i should be listening nor answering him.

Act 2
In the room,sitting on the bed while fiddling with my handphone.

Woman A:You put on weight ar.Wah,fat sia.That time saw you still very slim.Now! aiyoh(laughs enjoyably)
Me: Ya i know.trying to surface a not obvious hurt me,i delibrately laughed too.
Me: Ha......Ha.....Ha.....
In my mind:You sick scumbag.

Act 3
Back to the kitchen,my thrist was increasing so I was pouring some drinks when..

Me: Hey what are you eating?hungry ar?
Man A: Ya lah hungry lah,haiyah.
Me: Slurps syiok-ly
Man A: what happened to you ar? Why so fat already?
Me:huh?really ar?ha....ha....(i had to do a fake one)
Man A:hahaha,fat ar you..hahahahha.
Me:You mother fuck,i should not have start the conversation.

Act 4
I need to run away from the guys,so i opt to sit with the ladies,thinking they would might have a softer heart with a more understanding mind.But

Woman B: eh ayu,you fat already ar?whut you eat?
Woman C:everyday meat ar?chicken?nevr eat vegetables right?
Already shrinking Me:i do eat vegetables,they're like my favourites.
Woman C:But why fat?should be like your sister,see..so small and slim.
Woman D:Ya,i agree.seriously
Woman C:I dont think you eat vegetables,sure everyday eat chicken and tidbits right?
Woman B: No wonder the body like that.
Woman B: Y,thats why.
Woman D: musn't eat chicken everyday know,later you will ve very fat.Its unhealthy too.
Boy A and B:MOK!heheh.see the arms,bigger then mine..hehe!Mok!

Me:Fuck you all lah!!!!!!!I dont eat chicken everyday okay! and i do consume 2 servings of vegetbales and fruits everyday!!!!And I don look at my servings!!

Yes yes if only i could say all those above,but it was only a little thought i had in my mind.

One more word,and im turning to bullimic.I swear.I fucking swear.